SC or not?

Been wondering recently...
After joining SC, i dont feel "me" anymore...
Most importantly, i cant J walk!!! Gosh.

There's gap between me and the other SCs.
I dont know what is it, but i'll try to figure it out.

Anyhow, being an SC will be a stepping stone for me to get my LKY and will hone my leadership skills!
I will still consider...